You know that feeling where you want to make a move but you feel stuck? It’s like buyers-choice paralysis. You walk down the grocery store and there’s so many brands for the same product and you’re like “what do I even choose!?” I feel that way especially when I’m sick, I go in-between this unreal level of guilt that I’m not doing enough and need to work harder, and this obvious practicality that I need to rest. The world no doubt shouts “rest!!” But the internal drive feels stuck. I buy into impostor syndrome and the fear that, if I’m not working harder at my ambitions right now, someone else is. That drive is a good thing but it’s pretty crippling to be around, just ask my wife haha. I laugh, but it has been such a hard point of contention in our lives. The innate drive to do well and succeed often overshadows the desire to just be, to be present, to slow down. I write so many of these messages for that side of me, from the other side: “you’ll be dead soon, how do you want to remember the moments you spent?” Do I have the time to even be present? Ahh but life is a beautiful gift and I’m filled with gratitude, to even be plagued with such problems is the sign of a good life. Today as I finish the last legs my sickness seems to be on, I can’t help but think about all these things. Take help when you can, take rest when you must. An untamed hunger like a forest fire and will gobble up everything in its path, be content. #1924us #life #art #animation #mrskelly #thoughts #writing #inspiration #cool #beautiful #fyp #viral