"I kept thinking, 'once I see a positive pregnancy test, I’ll finally feel relieved.' Then it became, 'once I get good beta numbers… once I hear the heartbeat… once I make it out of the first trimester… once we get through the anatomy scan.' After loss and infertility, it can be hard to completely let go of the fear that something could go wrong, especially in the early stages. I was surprised by how much emotional weight each milestone carried for me. I had to keep reminding myself that those feelings were normal, and that it was okay to feel both grateful and cautious at the same time. I really tried to let myself experience joy while also giving myself grace through the anxiety that can come with pregnancy after loss. At the same time, there’s been so much gratitude and excitement in every milestone. Feeling her kick, setting up her nursery, buying baby clothes, and overall just preparing for her arrival have all felt incredibly emotional and meaningful to us because we know what it took to get here." Today on the Solly Baby blog, @nurse.maddi shares about her and her husband's experience navigating male factor infertility, IVF, and pregnancy after loss. The conversation is as beautifully transparent and inspiring as Maddi herself. Read the full interview at the link in profile.