6 YEARS OF SOBRIETY TODAY…but the truth is, I tasted alcohol 2 months ago. I haven’t told anyone this story…but last night while praying, God told me to set myself free. I was at a funeral for a dear friend of mine who passed away, he was so loved + so special. There was a Monster Energy fridge at the gathering, I opened it + grabbed the first one I saw. I took 3 sips before my friend (thank God for @rookxx ) pointed out it was a hard monster drink, which means it contained alcohol. I had no idea + immediately threw it down + began to have a full on panic attack. ALL this work + discipline felt taken from me in that moment. I spent the following month n a half pretty depressed about it…sobriety got harder after that day + thoughts about really throwing it all away started to creep in…why not just go all out? Why not go on a bender? I was fighting this battle in silence. I didn’t wanna get out of bed because I knew the urge to use would start screaming at me. I needed help. Instead of relapsing i decided to go get the help I needed. The sober community is so powerful. I started attending + eventually speaking at meetings again (sometimes forced, cuz they just know when you’re hiding in the back trying not to open up, grateful for those days). Today, I am forgiving myself. Not just for the slip up that was a complete accident, but for all the times I’ve let myself or others down in different ways too. I AM 6 YEARS SOBER. On May 11th, 2019 I was given a second lease on life. I didn’t die for a reason. I have a purpose + I will proudly share my story to hopefully inspire others. I want to live. I want to grow old. I want to make art. I want to be a good son, brother, and friend. I want to be a dad. Lately I’ve felt like I’m outgrowing certain things I’ve always loved + that’s okay! I feel a new start coming for me + I am excited. Makes sense that today lands on Mother’s Day cuz without my mom + second mom (my sister) who knows where I’d be today. You can overcome anything my friends. Life is too short to spend another day at war with yourself. Love yall forever. #wedorecover